This isn't a post mean to bash ACU chapel, the songs, leaders, etc. In fact, maybe I'm writing this here to motivate myself more than anything else. The mind sight I approach chapel with seeing it as a chore, when I see my significant other. Maybe, if I started seeing it as I did in the Dream Center, where I don't care how others see me worshipping, I don't care how I stand out if my arm rises. If I start caring less about what the other people around me on their phones, doing their homework, & their conversation then maybe I would start being in another conversation from Heaven.
Maybe this week showed me what it looks when a bunch of broken people give up titles, & say God is all I need. Who am I kidding, I say God is all I need, but how do I exemplify that in my life? Sure, God I lost an engagement, haven't lived with my parents in 10 years, but it could be worse. I want to keep seeking Him so much in my life. I want to prove it to Him however I can. That'll be my worship. I'm so glad God doesn't pay the same attention to me that I do to him. Never forget your child, I'm here. Help my poor faith.